I Can Only Imagine… Who I Would Be without Jesus

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I Can Only Imagine… Who I Would Be without Jesus

Amy Simpson is a writer and editor from Illinois. This is her first guest post for Trochia.

For the last decade or so, MercyMe’s song “I Can Only Imagine” has been part of the popular soundtrack on Christian radio and in churches across the country. The song is an expression of what many of us do—wondering what heaven will be like, how we will feel and what we’ll do when we’re standing in God’s presence, faced with his holiness and power. While we truly can’t know what such a moment will be like, such imaginative exercises can help us gain important perspective on our earthbound life and the concerns that seem so important in the shadows that loom over us here and now.

There’s another imaginative exercise that might be just as good for us, but not nearly as enjoyable. We might benefit from engaging in it just as frequently—because it can change our perspective and our relationships with people who don’t follow Jesus: imagine what you would be like without God’s grace.

For some of us, this doesn’t take a lot of imagination. For people new to faith or early in the journey toward becoming more like Jesus, a short trip down memory lane might show you exactly who you would be without grace and forgiveness through Jesus. But for others, like me, thinking back to life without Jesus means remembering life in childhood, when we definitely were sinful but lacked the capacity and opportunity for the kind of explosive and scarring sin that can mark the lives of adolescents and adults. I used to think my long journey with Jesus (and without a dramatic conversion story) made me boring; now it makes me grateful.

For longtime Christians like me, it’s natural to lose sight of what we have been saved from, and to judge others by the standards we think we can meet. Self-righteousness is among our great temptations, especially for those of us who, by God’s grace, avoided a lot of battle scars and haunting habits that regularly remind us what we’re capable of.

I once belonged to a Bible study group in which the discussion often degenerated into a session of judgmental head-shaking, pursed church-lady lips railing against the shocking presence of sin in the world around us. One specific person often steered the conversation in this direction and was especially fond of pointing out the depravity in celebrities. I couldn’t help wondering what was going on in her life that made her want to keep her eyes on what was wrong with other people.

I have a pretty good imagination and often a bad attitude. These elements conspire to remind me who I might be without God’s grace and the Holy Spirit’s transforming work. It’s truly not a pretty picture.

The Apostle Paul knew he wasn’t pretty either: “ ‘Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners’—and I am the worst of them all. But God had mercy on me so that Christ Jesus could use me as a prime example of his great patience with even the worst sinners. Then others will realize that they, too, can believe in him and receive eternal life” (1 Timothy 1:15-16).

“Though I am the least deserving of all God’s people, he graciously gave me the privilege of telling the Gentiles about the endless treasures available to them in Christ” (Ephesians 3:8).

He actually called himself “The worst of them all.” “The least deserving of all God’s people.” At first glance, this might look like false modesty. After all, Paul was the first missionary, bold and totally committed to Christ, responsible for bringing the good news about Jesus to Gentiles, for spreading Christianity throughout the ancient world and ultimately for communicating God’s grace to people like me. He sacrificed everything for his mission, endured hardships greater than most of us can even imagine, and most likely died a martyr. He authored half the books in the New Testament.

Yet Paul didn’t have to use his imagination to consider what his life would be like without grace. Before Jesus literally stopped him in his tracks on the road to Damascus, Paul was a self-righteous hater. He zealously persecuted people who followed Jesus, dragging them from their homes and throwing them in prison. He participated in the stoning of Stephen and probably had the blood of other Christ-followers on his hands. He didn’t experience a change of heart through gentle conviction, coming to realization of his sin and his need for God’s grace through Jesus. Instead, in order to change Paul’s heart, Jesus had to personally appear to him, speak audibly, strike him blind, and send him begging for help to the very people he had been persecuting. I think Paul was genuine in his characterization of himself. He knew who he was, and he knew he didn’t deserve what Jesus did for him.

Even after his dramatic conversion and his powerful ministry, Paul was aware of his ongoing appetite for sin: “I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong.  I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another power within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin” (Romans 7:21-25). No question who Paul was in his natural state, without Jesus.

When Paul wanted to remind the Ephesian church that their salvation was a gift from God—nothing they had earned—he reminded them who they were without it: “Once you were dead because of your disobedience and your many sins. You used to live in sin, just like the rest of the world, obeying the devil—the commander of the powers in the unseen world. He is the spirit at work in the hearts of those who refuse to obey God. All of us used to live that way, following the passionate desires and inclinations of our sinful nature. By our very nature we were subject to God’s anger, just like everyone else” (Ephesians 2:1-3). They didn’t deserve God’s gift, and neither do the rest of us.

One more thing Paul said, this time to the believers in Corinth: “It isn’t my responsibility to judge outsiders, but it certainly is your responsibility to judge those inside the church who are sinning. God will judge those on the outside; but as the Scriptures say, ‘You must remove the evil person from among you’ ” (1 Corinthians 5:12-13). In other words, we should be harsh with our own sin, but it isn’t our job to judge the world around us.

Next time you’re tempted to shake your head at the sinful choices of someone who hasn’t been changed by God’s grace, try using your imagination to picture yourself in the same circumstances. Then thank God for rescuing and redeeming the person you could be. You may find that your gratitude overwhelms your capacity for judgment. It’s hard to be shocked by someone else’s sin when we’re honest about our own potential.


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Amy Simpson is editor of Christianity Today’s Gifted for Leadership, a freelance writer, and author of the forthcoming Troubled Minds: Mental Illness and the Church’s Mission (InterVarsity Press).

You can find her at www.AmySimpsonOnline.com

 

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Amy Simpson
Amy Simpson
Hi, I'm Amy Simpson. I'm privileged to introduce myself to you. I'm a passionate leader, communicator, and coach who loves to encourage people to discern and fulfill their calling in this life. I work as an author, a personal and professional coach, a speaker, a freelance writer, and an editor. I have been a writer for 20 years, authoring numerous resources for Christian ministry, including my newest book, Anxious: Choosing Faith in A World of Worry, and the award-winning Troubled Minds: Mental Illness and The Church's Mission (both InterVarsity Press). As a coach, I am trained and certified (CPCC) through the Coaches Training Institute, the industry's most rigorous and highly respected training program. I also hold an MBA from the University of Colorado and more than 20 years of experience as a creative professional, corporate leader, and executive. I am also a woman of faith, and I seek to support others in their personal, professional, and spiritual growth while welcoming clients from all faith backgrounds. A former publishing executive, I serve as senior editor of Leadership Journal. My background includes a unique career path through both the editorial and business sides of publishing, including for-profit and nonprofit organizational leadership. I am deeply in love with my incredible husband, Trevor, and extremely proud of our two fantastic kids. I live with these wonderful people in the suburbs of Chicago, where I am committed to using the gifts God has given me in work that changes the world.
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